i dont know what it is

A sunny autumn day. I'm cycling to the bus station. A loud call from a bush at the side of the road: prrick yiu. Sounds almost like a coot. I turn arround to investigate. A black woodpecker flies out of the bush and away over the open meadow.

i dont know what it is about "no, im not a human" that captivates me so much. it's a game where you don't leave the house because of an apocalyptic event where strange beings try to invade your home. daily fear and panic from the television. hints about who might or might not be an enemy based on physical traits that in any other time would be benign. the paranoia that someone might try to kill you at night. the impact of global warming causing people to burn at daytime. the anxiety of testing someone - they're showing signs, but could they just be innocent

i don't know.
i've played through the game three times now, and it won't leave my head. i'm about to do a fourth playthrough. the game really touches me emotionally, and i cannot quite tell why.

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Journal Week 43, October 2025

It's been quite a week. I tried to push myself to get some exercises in, but also focused on getting proper rest as well. Some appointments, like physio, some grocery shopping, like going to Germany to get things for my parents and myself, and some hard garden work with my bestie. The weather was a lot like my emotional state of mind... Some moments, there was sun, others there was rain, we definitely had times where there was quite a bit of wind (of course when we were working in the garden with the anti root fabric). But we were fortunate that the Friday turned out to be less wet than the prediction had forecast at the start of the week. Colder, wetter, less sun... I guess autumn weather really arrived now. Though I do hope for some good weather this Friday, as bestie was/is supposed to come over and help me with the garden work... Quick links to the days of the week: Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday & Sunday. Diary

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"After with great pleasure lying a great while talking and sporting in bed with my wife (for we have been for some years now, and at present more and more, a very happy couple, blessed be God), I got up and to my office."

Wow, what a sentence. Structurally it disorients us. Substantively it informs us. Humanly it cheers us up. Layer upon layer of meaning.

It is sentences such as this that make Pepys Pepys. A veritable micro story, in one single sentence. Franz Kafka could have written it.

As always with Pepys, the slight deviations from regular grammar & style only add sharpness to the writing.

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Vielleicht doch etwas zu klein Ich wei noch nicht ob ich das nutzen werde.

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Hello

I am happy to share my blog has reached 20k+ all time views.

I started around 2020 as a creative outlet in my boring life and it has transformed into an archive of knowledge.

I am not a frequent poster these days, as seen by the blog posts' dates but it fills me with joy whenever I post something.

It's a piece of history, research time and effort being preserved in a textual format for me to go back and read.

If you'd like to check it out:

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Journal Week 42, October 2025

What a week it's been... Started feeling blh due to the aftermath of the Covid-19 infection. I started feeling better on Tuesday, after two long nights of sleep. A shorter night after that, followed by an awefully long day. But... Hopefully the long day was all worth it... A more relaxing day on Thursday, with an earlier bedtime to try and catch up on some missed sleep. I started at the gym again, as I felt almost as good a before the virus, and I really missed the gym. The visit to my friends, and getting Skoosh' new shoes, had been postponed, as we didn't want to risk anything, seeing my friends have some health issues as well. The weekend was mostly me feeling like I was failing, because I was resting a lot, while I had wanted to do this and that... But recovering from both an autistic burnout and Covid-19 also means needing more rest... Several gray days, not too cold during the day (for October), slowly getting a bit colder during the nights... Seeing I have spent several of those days in isolation, it wasn't too bad weather to be confined at home with, I guess...Quick links to the days of the week: Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday & Sunday. Am I proud of myself
No.

Hey Mastodon, do you know any good app, open source, that I can self host on a linux server, to keep a diar/journaly ideally that can include different type of media (photo, sounds...) and that would have client app for mobile phone I can find a few but I thought I will ask here first before making a choice!

Ayer me pas algo normal, pero que de alguna forma me llam la atencin.

Era de noche, y me diriga al trabajo. Como acostumbro a salir con unos minutos de antelacin, decid hacer una pausa de cinco minutos en un parque cercano antes de llegar.

Me encontraba mirando el mvil cuando not que una persona se acercaba. Era una joven, no mayor de 30 aos, muy guapa, de ojos azules y pelo semirrubio. Su corte de pelo era juvenil (una media melena corta que no alcanzaba los hombros y ligeramente ondulada). Vesta un chndal de algodn con capucha, quiz un par de tallas grande para ella. Su delgadez era extrema, y su apariencia sugera que era consumidora habitual de sustancias nocivas. Me pidi dinero, pretextando que necesitaba tomar un autobs. De forma educada, y por simple inercia, me negu. Ella no insisti y se retir con una visible tristeza, como si supiera de antemano cul sera mi respuesta, aunque conservando un mnimo de esperanza.

Percib que, en cierta manera, an mantena la cordura dentro de ese mundo de adiccin que obliga a hacer cosas que uno no desea. Sent una gran pena por un lado, porque tena dinero en mi mochila y pude haberla ayudado por otro, por la situacin en la que se hallaba y, finalmente, porque no haba perdido completamente la dignidad, algo que tristemente es comn en quienes estn en su misma circunstancia.

En esencia, todava era una persona, con todo lo que ello conlleva.

Sigo pensando en ella.

in the easy chair of afternoon

In Sympathy
DB Jonas

I didn't get a cover for my 5 year diary from hobonichi, so instead I picked up this leather zipfolio - can't wait for it to get scuffed up and get some wear/tear on it. <3
The pens are (from left to right)

Vintage st. dupont
Lamy Safari
Pilot Kakuno
Platinum Preppy
2026 Hobonichi

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Last volume !
The important thing is not the destination, but the journey.
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Journal Week 41, October 2025

What a week! Monday I had to place another phone call as the heat pump's pressure was gone again... Tuesday wasn't too bad, until I had a meltdown when things went wonky due to a late appointment for that stupid pump. Wednesday and Thursday went OK enough, I was just a bit grouchy as I didn't feel that good, mostly mentally (although I was still feeling exhausted as well). Friday was a long day, with the dentist, an extra physio appointment, and some guys coming to dig up the garden, again due to the heat pump. Saturday was OK enough, but I started feeling a bit off... Mum texted me and that possibly explained why I wasn't feeling too good either. On Sunday, yeah, I did another test and I felt so rubbish... I got Covid19 for the second time, and it messed up so much... (including some plans that I had been looking forward to for over a month). Ugh... While it seems we will have some warmer days again, and less rain, it's getting less sunny... Let's hope there will be some good moments to start taking away some of the weeds (edit: nope, didn't happen...).Quick links to the days of the week: Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday & Sunday.

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