I was digging through old external
I was digging through old external hard drives this past week, full of things I backed up off of CD-ROMs I burned in the early 2000s and I was really struck by what these photos I have taken mean to me now, 20+ years later. Windows into my own past. I have documented my entire adult life and some of my teenage years. This isnt exactly unique anymore, now that everyone has a camera in their pocket all the time, but also, people are always talking about data loss. Their phone breaks and they lose all their photos. But I have always backed things up in triplicate and I continue to back up my oldest stuff to new hard drives periodically, so I can really get lost in my own past sometimes.
Environmental Portraits
The photos that are the most interesting to me to look back on are the candid shots and the environmental portraits. Sure Ive taken a lot of styled and posed and edited photos, and been creative and experimental and Im glad to have done all of it. Im glad to have silly sexy pictures of myself when I was young and to have let myself be weird and ugly and messy and goofy, too. But I wish I had taken even more environmental self portraits. Environmental portraits are just, someone in a place that it is natural for them to be, at home, at work, at play, in their real life surroundings. I also love to take pictures of other people and not have them turn, and look, and smile. Keep doing what youre doing! You see this style a lot in documentary and photojournalism. Its not AS common in in self portraiture, its bending the documentary aspect a bit that Im both behind and in front of the camera, but I do feel like it makes for very honest photos of these times in my life.
I have always thought of this practice as a diary, which is why I started calling myself a photographer diarist. Im making something for myself to remember more than content for other people to consume. But it is fun to share stuff, and I thought it would be nice to go through my archives and put together a series of (mostly environmental) self portraits in chronological order and share a little bit of my 24 year diary with yall.
2001. 16 years old. My first job as a janitor.2002. My 17th birthday, my teenaged bedroom.2003. Picking Daffodils in the front yard.2004. First date, in a cave in the woods behind his house.2005. Santa Monica Beach. 2006. Double exposure in my teenaged bedroom with boyfriend Shaun. 2007. Doing the dishes in my kitchen, not very long after we moved in, newlywed2008. ICU waiting room, getting coffee, my dad was dying2009. Taking Holga photos in our garage.2010. In the mosquito bog our backyard became in the two years after my dad died. He tilled it in 2008. All of this was dirt in 2008. Life goes on.2011. The Living Room at Pwhisker Hollow.2012. Childhood Home.2013. Rock Band 32014. I did a whole week of Environmental Self Portraits in my 365 set this year, here is one in my bedroom.2015. My year of peak yoga fitness.2016. We moved the couch. Mr. Wooly makes an appearance.2017. Porch-sit playing our Nintendo DSes2018. Shauns first summer internship, lived in a hotel in Virginia for a few months.2019. Lived in University housing in downtown Fredericksburg, VA for the summer, happiest summer of my life.2020. Worked at the Osage Forest of Peace while it was closed for covid. Deep cleaned cabins, like this one I had just washed the exterior of. 2021. Packed up our home of 15 years to move 1000+ miles across the country.2022. In our new rented home in Virginia. 2023. The home we bought.March 19, 2024 Thinking about making this blog post while I folded laundry and watched Murder She Wrote.Current Mood: retrospective
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The week of March 24th-30th. I usually only do two colours per page, but I thought I'd challenge myself this time with three.
A full moon week!
DiaryDora Budors anti-urine deflectors make a splash in Nottingham
Photos taken at the 3/20/2003 anti-war rally in Federal Plaza Chicago. It''ll never be the end of
tauchte zum ersten Mal im Protokoll der 155. Sitzung des 20. Deutschen Bundestages am 23.02.2024 auf. Das Protokoll findet sich unter
Caravaggio, Holbein and Botticelli through 'the lens' of the eye condition glaucoma
a a t clairement une bonne journe. Le soleil est de la partie et j'ai pass pas mal de temps m'occuper l'extrieur sans le smartphone la main. Pour moi c'est une victoire!
Since I finally got my new supplies, decided to celebrate by sitting down and making next week's layout.
The heroes have come to their senses. Good job, pals. Well done. Three cheers. Congratulations. Hip hip hooray. Thumbs up. Gold star. Gold medal. Headteacher's award.
Rating a series, like a manga or anime, on a whole is much easier than tackling it chapter by chapter, or episode by episode.
Le temps est couvert ce matin mais il ne fait pas froid.
Avec A nous avons parl chien. De Choupette, de son sale caractre, de notre attachement elle.
Elle est morte il y a quelques annes maintenant et nous pleurons son vocation.
Peut-tre que l'ide de reprendre un chien fait place dans notre esprit petit petit, pour apporter de la joie dans ces temps difficiles que nous vivons.
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9th Overlay, 3/9/2024 Over 1/9/2019, same location now with a new doppelganger.
Starting transition slowly. Got patches for a month at low dosage. Too early to feel or look any different. I kinda feel more relaxed but its probably because the process of getting it is finished. Hoping for the best!
v in this Gryph the Gryphon's diary . Gryph writes lots of positive things which happened to this Gryphon V
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du jour, bonjour !
Transhumance 69 - La sortie de secours
La srie ici :
another extremely hot middle-aged man appearing in a movie for 2 seconds to ruin my life.
3/7/2005:
Photographer Diane Arbus has a show at the Met. She let people politely "gawk" at freaks, dwarves, and sideshow performers. That's one of the unique things about photography it lets people stare at other people without being impolite. I also like her Axiom: "a photo is a secret about a secret."
spending the afternoon making a zine
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04/03/2023 - "Never a frown with golden brown"
Why I would choose the Strangler's Golden brown for my autobiography first sentence: a rememberence of peace and a call for help reminiscing how heroin addiction shaped me, for better and worse
because nobody seem to care what i post here anyway, i will link some very "private" thoughts, extremely hard to digest. yet, i do feel cognix made a great work at tackling them all... so...
if you (dear crazy reader) want a deep and very scary dive into my thoughts (or what the voice2text could gather from it, anyway) today:
the dive goes way beyond what i started to write at ahoxus.org/glc inclusive.
Getting ahead of myself because I just love sitting down at my desk and making these layouts so much. X) Enjoying this red + chartreuse colour scheme! :blobhug2:
Laconic always is best in a diary.
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First week of March. Plus a couple of bonus shots: A photo of my desk in the midst of the stamping chaos and a close up of the numbers for fun. :daahoy:
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2/26/2019 taken on the evening commute. We were just emerging from the polar vortex, in stark contrast to the more pleasant extremes in 2024.
Februarys Scrapbook page
Diary of Anne Frank 2/23/1944:
The best remedy for those who are frightened, lonely or unhappy is to go outside, somewhere they can be alone, alone with the sky, nature and God. For then and only then can you feel that everything is as it should be and that God wants people to be happy amid nature's beauty and simplicity. As long as this exists, and that should be forever, I know that there will be solace for every sorrow, whatever the circumstances. I firmly believe that nature can bring comfort to all who suffer. Oh, who knows, perhaps it won't be long before I can share this overwhelming feeling of happiness with someone who feels the same as I do.
2/23/2020: Frank Lloyd Wright's Unity Temple with interesting "spiritual" caustic reflections from the adjacent building.
And the upcoming summary page for March. :daw00t: