Journal Week 25, June 2026
Journal Week 25, June 2026
It was a busy week, that quickly also became a very hot week. My back and leg were still giving me enough trouble, and my physio worked hard on the damned muscle. It hurt a lot, and unfortunately, at the end of the week, it still hurt me. I could not walk properly with Koa, which annoyed me, as I felt I was letting him down, and not providing to his needs. There was some good stuff this week, but also some sad things... A bit of a mix, and I know that next week will be even harder, for various (sad) reasons. So yeah, it was quite a week, where I dealed with some extremes... But, Koa and I made it through, and we're ready to start the new week, which they predict will be even hotter than this one was... An infographic from "weer&radar" showing a 14-day weather forecast for Herpen, dated June 15, 2026. The background is a solid blue, featuring a large white rectangular chart in the center with two line graphs, a row of weather icons, and a color-coded legend at the bottom.Header Text: At the top left, in yellow and white text, it reads: "14-daagse verwachting / Herpen / 15 juni 2026".The Chart: The chart tracks a 14-day period starting on a Monday (Ma) and ending on a Sunday (Zo). The weekends are highlighted with light blue vertical shading.Top Red Line Graph (Maximum Temperature in C): Starts at 19 on Monday, climbs steadily to 24 (Tuesday), 25 (Wednesday), 31 (Thursday), and peaks at 32 on Friday. It then drops to 28 for both Saturday and Sunday. The second week stays relatively steady: 26 (Monday), 26 (Tuesday), 27 (Wednesday), jumps to 29 (Thursday), then drops back to 26 (Friday), 26 (Saturday), and finishes at 28 on Sunday.Bottom Blue Line Graph (Minimum Temperature in C): Starts at 11 on Monday and Tuesday, rises to 13 (Wednesday), 15 (Thursday), and peaks at 20 on Friday and Saturday. It then dips slightly to 18 on Sunday and Monday. The second week cools down further to 13 (Tuesday) and 12 (Wednesday), before rising back to 15 (Thursday), and stabilizing at 14 for Friday, Saturday, and Sunday.Weather Conditions Row: Directly beneath the graphs is a horizontal row of 14 blocks indicating daily conditions.Days 1, 3, and 7 through 14 are pale beige blocks.Day 2 (Tuesday) features a single blue raindrop icon on a pale beige background.Day 4 (Thursday) is a solid bright yellow block.Days 5 and 6 (Friday and Saturday) are bright yellow blocks featuring a green outline of a lightning bolt.Legend and Footer: At the bottom of the white rectangle, a legend shows a red dot for "Max (C)" and a blue dot for "Min (C)". To the right, a sun icon sits next to two color blocks: a bright yellow block labeled "veel" (much/frequent sunshine) and a pale beige block labeled "weinig" (little/low sunshine).The footer of the image features the "weer&radar" logo with a yellow globe symbol in place of the ampersand. Below it, text reads "beschikbaar voor" alongside Android, Apple, and web browser icons. The very bottom center notes the data status: "Stand: 15-06-2026".Quick links to the days of the week: Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday & Sunday.
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Buongiorno. At my age, you tend to take a second look at these notes. Theres usually someone on there you knowor rather, used to know. Saluti, Mafalda Cinquetti from ","detectedsourcelanguage":"DE
The life that goes nowhere
Welcome or welcome back reader. Here we are again. Me and my nonstop yapping about my misery.
I realized something just now. my life is going nowhere. like literally. I was laying on the couch while my guy doing his stupid game developing next me and I was thinking. I hope he finish the game someday then it will be my time to shine So i said it out loud: I cant wait when the game is done so you can put this much time and effort to be with me. his reaction of course uhum and that he want to do something with his life well no shit Sherlock I would want too but Im here waiting for you to change, to finally make me feel like a partner, or for maybe get married finally after 5 years He engaged me 3 times and in the end we never got married and if I bring up the topic of Im being miserable, I dont want to wast more time here waiting, or just he should act more like a partner he shuts me down. the other day midsummer night we was out just driving around, I randomly bring up the topic and his reaction was: it was such a nice midsummer why have to ruin it Well Im very sorry that I want to move forward too and not just being in a pause bc you cant decide if you want to be with me or not. It sucks bc I gave up my home and my heritage for this guy and all I got is this misery You can say Im needy or whatever but I dont think the bare minimum is needy here. I just want to belong, or be treated like I matter, or as a partner, or a person at least. I dont want fancy stuff, but at least sometimes a cuddle or a proper kiss not just stupid pecks on lips. maybe something physical It sucks.I feel miserable, disgusting and worthless Im absolutely unmotivated to study his language, to live in his country, or to even stay alive I dont think thats the right direction, but also. Im too faithful to go on dating sites or leave bc I seen he can be caring or at least he faked it well in the beginning. It hurts I feel scammed and trapped. I have nowhere to go, I have no money to leave bc I try to be useful and give to him all I have, and I have nobody to ask advice from I wish I met him some other times of my life. When I still had self confidence and knew my self worth I would have probably already walked away then. But now He knows I cant do that so he dont even care about this relationship. I used to write journal, and already 4 years go I was writing about how unhappy I am with him Even showed it to him but no reaction. always just the promises of yes yes I will do better or shut me down. Recently I noticed that I not even act myself anymore. I noticed that showing a slight of personality just made me feel uncomfortable bc of his reactions, so I shut myself down. COMPLETELY! Im an empty sad shell waiting to live again and I fill the emptiness with anxiety, fear, sadness and unnecessary amount of snacks so at least I keep gaining weight too thats it thats me.
Alright he came in to the studio and gave a short shoulder massage bc my back is so messed up from stress. yes Im stupid enough to take this as something awesome and kind feel like I forgive all the misery but still It will be gone soon so I will be back sinking in my life that goes nowhere
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Buongiorno. I urgently needed to have the soles replaced on my comfortable shoes yesterday. But ever since the cobbler closed down in 1978, Ive always had to travel all the way to the other end of Venice to get it done! Saluti, Mafalda Cinquetti from
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Buongiorno. I was so engrossed in my conversation with Angelia Moretti at the pier yesterday that I almost got on the wrong boat. Alilaguna only goes to the airport. Saluti, Mafalda Cinquetti from
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Create your Dream DiaryJournal Week 24, June 2026
Well, it's been quite a week! Mostly, I struggled with a lot of pain, due to a big muscle in my back making a mess of things. Monday to Tuesday night, I almost called emergency services due to the pain. Then, something popped hard, which gave some instant relief. But, the rest of the week was dominated by my back being just awful. I was fortunate to get some help with Koa, as several neighbors and mum have taken him out on a normal walk for a few days. Koa started to lose his little sharp puppy teefs, which meant a lot of biting. He's been more naughty, doing things he knows he should not be doing. As I struggled with my back having a more bitey, and naugty, pup wasn't the easiest thing to deal with. I ordered some things for Koa, and I got my ordered pictures delivered, so I could add them to the old skool photo albums. It was a hard week, due to my stupid back. But, we made it through the best we could. A screenshot from the "weer&radar" weather app or website showing a 14-day weather forecast for Herpen, dated June 8, 2026.The image has a dark blue background with a central white graph panel. At the top, yellow and white text reads "14-daagse verwachting", "Herpen", and "08 juni 2026".The graph displays a two-week timeline starting on Monday (Ma) and ending on Sunday (Zo), with weekends highlighted by light blue vertical bands. Two line graphs plot the temperatures: a top red line for maximum temperatures and a bottom blue line for minimum temperatures, both in degrees Celsius.The daily breakdown is as follows:Week 1:Monday: Max 21, Min 13 (Rain drop icon)Tuesday: Max 17, Min 11 (Lightning/thunderstorm icon)Wednesday: Max 17, Min 9 (Lightning/thunderstorm icon)Thursday: Max 18, Min 10 (Rain drop icon)Friday: Max 20, Min 12 (Rain drop icon)Saturday: Max 24, Min 15Sunday: Max 25, Min 14Week 2:Monday: Max 27, Min 15Tuesday: Max 26, Min 15Wednesday: Max 26, Min 14Thursday: Max 22, Min 13Friday: Max 21, Min 12Saturday: Max 22, Min 12Sunday: Max 25, Min 14Below the temperature graphs, a horizontal bar indicates sunshine duration using a yellow gradient, with a legend showing a sun icon ranging from "veel" (much yellow) to "weinig" (little yellow/grey). The first five days also feature small weather icons for rain or thunderstorms, while the remaining days show varying shades of yellow indicating plenty of sunshine.At the bottom of the image, the "weer&radar" logo is displayed in white and yellow, followed by "beschikbaar voor" alongside Android, Apple, and web icons. The very bottom text reads "Stand: 08-06-2026".Quick links to the days of the week: Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday & Sunday.Buongiorno. Yesterday, the supermarket on Via Nova had onions from Chioggia on sale. The store is not exactly close by, but still worth the walk. I could not miss that opportunity. Saluti, Mafalda Cinquetti from
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Resurfacing
Hello Friends! I did not intend to take time away, but life has been full and I am still searching to strike some sort of balance with all the things. In the meantime, Ive been prioritizing personal journal writing over blog writing. Ive consistently kept a journal since I was 10-years-old. It has become the primary way in which I think about things and it is important to my mental health.
Heres my first diary and the first entry on February 24, 1978:
The entry reads, Dear Diary. Alicia got a camra. and there was no film in it and Marie Jakie Cindy and Tammy thout that they were really taking pictures.
Scandalous stuff, especially all the misspellings and poor punctuation!
I made another entry the next day on the 25th that notes I helped my dad trim the flowers, got in an argument with my sister, and before dinner my mom put me on a diet. WTF I was 10! I have read this diary a few times and had no recall of this entry. But lately in my Buddhist practice, which is an embodied practice, I have begun the process of making friends with my body. Reading this diary entry was a bell of mindfulness, and I have gained a great insight into myself and the suffering from the wound I wish to transform. Just one reason why keeping a diary/journal is so important!
In the last several years, my journal has taken second place to blogging, but with the Metro Surge ICE invasion I needed to make my journal take first place. The Surge is technically over, but ICE is still active here, there are community groups formed and forming that I am involved with, and there is much trauma to work through. And then there have been baby chickens to raise, and a garden to plant and care for as well as the usual full-time job and daily and weekly tasks of living. And sourdough. I have been learning lots and getting so good! Check it out:
Thats a . I made a significant cut in the sugar and salt and used half bread flour and half whole wheat. Toast up a slice to eat with my morning porridge with a little rose petal and peony jam made from the garden flowers, and wowza! I have much to burble on about sourdough bread baking, but will leave it for another time.
In prioritizing journaling I have also renewed my pleasure in fountain pens. I have enjoyed using fountain pens for decades and have a nice little collection as well as quite a few bottles of ink. I havent bought new ink in years and have been using just one favorite pen for my journal and another for letters, but it turns out one of my Beloved Community Circle friends is a fountain pen collector and their enthusiasm has reawakened mine.
They have shared some ink samples with me and recently gifted me with a vintage Esterbrook. I have gifted them with a shark pen and intend to share some ink samples too. So for my birthday in April when my mom sent me a cash gift, I bought some new ink and have put some more of my pens into use rotation.
Here are a few of my pens, from top to bottom: Lamy Safari with a broad nib and azurite ink Lamy All Star with a stub nib and Earl Grey ink my own shark pen with a medium nib and purple ink the vintage Esterbrook my friend gifted me with a medium nib and Mysterious Blue ink.
I am by no means a pen collector, I just have a collection of pens. My pleasure comes from using different pens and inks and nib sizes on different paper and for different purposes, not in the actual collecting. I find great joy in the slowness of writing with a fountain pen in the feeling of the nib moving across paper in the beautiful colors of the various inks in seeing how different inks and nib sizes work together and change the way my writing looks. It is a physically grounding aesthetic practice and I am so happy my BCC friend has brought me back to it.
Chickens
Babba Yaga and Nanny Ogg moved into the coop about two weeks ago. Their transition has gone well, but oh, I have stories! They will have to wait a bit. For now, here are the sassy girls who, if I counted correctly, are just over 10 weeks old:
Baba is the white chicken. She is a Pearl Onyx and is supposed to have a black wattle and comb with additional bits of black in her feathers. She has barely any black, anywhere. This may or may not change as she continues to grow, but shes a bit of a rebel so I wont be surprised if it doesnt. Nanny Ogg is a Speckled Sussex and a gorgeous girl the photo doesnt do her justice. She is a friendly, curious hen who might end up getting herself into trouble one of these days because of it. I adore them both!
Garden
The weather the last few weeks has been hot and dry, but weve been managing to keep the garden watered enough so only one tomato plant succumbed. Ive been picking rhubarb, salads, and now strawberries. So many strawberries!
Lots of garden stories too I hope to share.
Fingers crossed I will manage to make some space for regular posting even if, as dear, kind suggested, it is only photos and a few words. I hope you are all well and thriving.
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Didn't know that there is an unedited version of Anne Frank's diary.
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Ik leerde het werk van Etty Hillesum bij toeval kennen. Ik struinde over de Haagse Boekenmarkt op het Lange Voorhout en het boek Het denkende hart van de barak stak uit een boekendoos. Het was inmiddels bijna oud papier: een lichtgroene omslag, vergeelde paginas. En ik kon het meenemen voor vier euro.
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Anne Frank (June 12, 1929 February 1945) for her thirteenth birthday received a diary. She began to write about her life, the people around her, short stories even a novel.
She dreamed of becoming a writer.
War left us only her diary.
It stole the girl, the books she never wrote, and the life she should have had.
Buongiorno. Where it gets dark and smells a little musty. That would probably be a better way to describe it. Ill let Silvana Mercuti know right away! Saluti, Mafalda Cinquetti from
"It's funny - the reasons why these women actually come to share their beds and husbands with someone else are so many: fear, pleasure, jealousy, curiosity, insecurity, fantasy. But deep down, I believe that all women really like being with other women.
Whether men enjoy being with other men, I'm not sure, because when I'm with two at the same time, even at 'parties' with DP and the whole works, I've never seen anything happen between them (which is a shame). If they do it when they're alone, well, that's another story . . . I've shared the intimacy of sex with lots of people, men and women, and I know what I'm talking about. I'm going to be an excellent psychologist, mark my words."